I somehow slowly love you

“But I somehow slowly love you
And wanna keep you the same
Well, I somehow slowly know you
And wanna keep you away”

[Massive Attack, The Spoils]

Looks like I can’t be happy. My heart is still broken. Still longing for… I know it’s impossible. It hurts. Depression! Autumn has come.

maxresdefaultHitlist #811

September 19th, 2016

  1. 1 (7) MASSIVE ATTACK FEAT. HOPE SANDOVAL, The Spoils
  2. – (1) YEARS & YEARS, Meteorite
  3. 4 (3) ZHU, Palm Of My Hand
  4. 5 (3) 周杰伦 (JAY CHOU), 土耳其冰激凌 (Turkish Ice Cream)
  5. 7 (9) KUNGS VS. COOKIN’ ON 3 BURNERS, This Girl
  6. 3 (11) YEARS & YEARS, Worship
  7. 2 (6) EDITORS, All The Kings
  8. 6 (4) LP, Lost On You
  9. 8 (13) ALAN WALKER, Sing Me To Sleep
  10. 14 (2) FLORENCE + THE MACHINE, Too Much Is Never Enough
  11. 12 (8) ALUNAGEORGE, Mean What I Mean
  12. 13 (6) KENT, Den vänstra stranden
  13. 11 (5) SOPHIE ELLIS-BEXTOR, Come With Us
  14. 9 (4) METALLICA, Hardwired
  15. – (1) LADY GAGA, Perfect Illusion
  16. 16 (2) NICK CAVE & THE BAD SEEDS, Jesus Alone
  17. – (1) RÖYKSOPP FEAT. SUSANNE SUNDFØR, Never Ever
  18. 10 (5) 李荣浩 (RONGHAO LI), 野生动物 (Wild Animals)
  19. 18 (9) KATY PERRY, Rise
  20. 15 (8) ÁLVARO SOLER, Agosto

We Are No Longer There

kentvideoHitlist #797

June 13th, 2016

  1. 1 (5) KENT, Vi är inte längre där
  2. 2 (4) FRANS, If I Were Sorry
  3. 7 (4) RED HOT CHILI PEPPERS, Dark Necessities
  4. 3 (6) RADIOHEAD, Burn The Witch
  5. 10 (3) SERGEY LAZAREV, You Are The Only One
  6. 4 (10) ZHU, In The Morning
  7. 6 (4) ÁLVARO SOLER, Sofia
  8. 5 (8) TWENTY ONE PILOTS, Stressed Out
  9. 8 (7) MUSE, Sign O’ The Times (BBC Radio 1 :Live Lounge)
  10. 11 (12) MASSIVE ATTACK FEAT. AZAKEL, Ritual Spirit
  11. 12 (7) DUA LIPA, Be The One
  12. – (1) ADELE, Send My Love (To Your New Lover)
  13. 9 (13) TFBOYS, 大梦想家 (Big Dreamer)
  14. 19 (2) PJ HARVEY, The Orange Monkey
  15. 15 (3) 周杰伦 (JAY CHOU), 前世情人 (Qianshi Qingren)
  16. 13 (13) THE LAST SHADOW PUPPETS, Aviation
  17. 16 (15) YEARS & YEARS FEAT. TOVE LO, Desire
  18. 14 (4) ZOË, Loin d’ici
  19. 17 (5) JAMALA, 1944
  20. – (1) BECK, Wow

autumn fever

Autumn has always been my favourite season. Colours everywhere! Yellows, oranges, reds, still some greens and browns. Luckily here in Hangzhou even November is a beautiful month, full of sunshine and tranquility. The only pity is that the air isn’t as clear as I would wish to take good photos. That’s why I needed to edit them a bit – give them more colours! Because what would be the life without them? Life is not black and white, nor gray.

Louis Armstrong

Louis Armstrong was a trumpeter, singer, soloist, film star and comedian. He is considered one of the most influential artists in jazz history. He came to popularity in the 1920s playing cornet and trumpet with an exceptional new and improvisational style. His charismatic stage presence impressed not only the jazz world but all of popular music.

Roald Amundsen

Roald Amundsen was born on July 16, 1872 in Borge, Norway into a family of merchant sea captains and ship owners. He was the first explorer to reach the South Pole. He was the first to take a ship voyage along the northern cost of Canada. He was also one of the first to cross the Arctic by air.

He was the fourth son in the family. His mother chose to keep him out of the maritime industry of the family and pressured him to become a doctor, a promise that Amundsen kept until his mother died when he was 21 years old, and then he quit university for a life at sea.

Amundsen was a powerfully built man of over 180 cm in height. As a youth he insisted on sleeping with the windows open even during the freezing Norwegian winters to help condition himself for a life of polar exploration. Amundsen developed a fascination with Antarctica from the time he first saw it in 1897. At that time Antarctica, a continent the size of Europe and Australia combined, had not yet been traversed by humans. Amundsen aimed to be the first.

In 1897 Roald sailed on the Belgica, which was the first to be in the Antarctic during the winter.

In 1903 he was the first to sail through the Northwest Passage (a sea route through the Arctic Ocean around the northern Canadian coast, connecting the Atlantic and Pacific Oceans).

In a three-year journey between 1903 and 1906, Amundsen explored the passage with a crew of no more than six. Amundsen completed the voyage in the herring boat Gjøa. It was much smaller than vessels used by other Arctic expeditions, but Amundsen intended to survive by the limited resources of the land and sea, so he didn’t need much space on the ship. The journey must have taken three years to complete as Amundsen and his crew had to wait while the frozen sea around them thawed enough to allow further sailing.

After completing the Northwest Passage trip, Amundsen skied 800 kilometers to the city of Eagle, Alaska, and sent a telegram announcing his success. Then he skied 800 kilometers back to rejoin his companions. What a sacrifice was it!

Amundsen wanted to be the first man to go to the North Pole. However, American Robert Peary got there first in 1909. When Amundsen found out that he could not be first, he decided to be the first man to reach the South Pole. Amundsen studied all he could of previous unsuccessful attempts and began the long process of preparing for his own. Amundsen took special measures to be sure that members of his crew possessed personalities suitable to long polar voyages. Crew members onboard his ships knew he was firm but fair, and referred to him as “the chief”.

He left Norway in June, 1910. The whole world thought he was headed in the complete opposite direction, but it wasn’t true. Amundsen even kept his plans a secret from officials in the Norwegian government. He was afraid that government officials would be hesitant to challenge Great Britain in a race to the Pole, as there was another explorer, the British, who decided to

reach the South Pole. It was not until Amundsen’s ship, “Fram”, was off the coast of Morocco (Africa) that he announced to his crew that they were headed for the South, not the North.

He set up his base 100 kilometers closer to the Pole than the British explorer Robert Falcon Scott. Amundsen, with 4 companions, 52 dogs, and 4 sledges, set out on October 19, 1911. At approximately 3 pm on December 14, 1911, he raised the flag of Norway at the South Pole, and named the spot Polheim – “Pole Home”. He and his crew returned to their base camp on January 25, 1912, which was 99 days and almost 3000 km after their departure. They reached the Pole before Scott and his team. (Scott led a team of five which reached the South Pole on 17 January 1912. On their return journey, Scott and his four comrades all died from a combination of exhaustion, starvation and extreme cold.)

The month-long voyage back to Tasmania (the island south of Australia) was a frustrating time for Amundsen, who was now quite anxious to be the first to announce the news of their achievement. On March 7, 1912, Amundsen finally cabled his brother Leon with the historic news.

During World War I Amundsen continued his Arctic explorations. He managed to complete the Northwest Passage around Russia – he was only the second person to do so. In 1921 he decided to take on another challenge: flying, but was soon facing extreme financial problems before gaining support from Lincoln Ellsworth. Together with Ellsworth, history was made in 1926 when they flew from Spitsbergen (north from Norway) to Alaska via the North Pole on the airship called the Norge. This was the first trans-Arctic flight right across the Pole.

Amundsen, fulfilled by his reputation, now retired. Unfortunately, he never could come to terms with the British reaction to his secret change of plans in 1910. He was described as the most unhappy of all the polar explorers.

On June 18, 1928, he lost his life flying to rescue an engineer named Umberto Nobile. Nobile had built the plane that Amundsen flew over the North Pole. Amundsen’s rescue plane crashed into the Arctic Ocean. That same year, speaking to a journalist about his love of the icy Arctic, Amundsen said, “If only you knew how splendid it is up there, that’s where I want to die”.

Roald Amundsen is often referred to as “the last of the Vikings”.

冰冰

最近很经常去游泳.. 今天很特别的! 一个男人邀请我去午饭. 他也经常游泳, 我认识他. 他叫冰冰 – 他告诉我他喜欢男人… 虽然他已经结婚了. 我们聊天一下, 很放松了!

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你无可替代 – nothing compares to you, nothing can replace you

萎靡不振 – in low spirits, apathetic

心如死灰 – hopelessly apathetic

catch up

Today I met several friends I haven’t seen for some time. First of all, my ex-colleague, V. We haven’t contacted for about 2 years, even though we both live in Hangzhou. During that time she got pregnant, gave birth to a baby daughter, changed a job.. many things have changed. It was good to talk, although her little daughter was quite loud!Before that I met another V. (Victor), my old students whom I haven’t seen for… 4 years! My god, such a long time, but I still could remember his Chinese name! It turned out that he’s got another baby, this time a boy – congratulations! Although … because it’s his second baby and he didn’t want to be fined for that, his wife delivered it in Hong Kong. Well, that’s also a solution.
And last but not least – Jack, the cute waiter from Japanese restaurant! Oh, it was so lovely to catch up! Finally I felt happy, for the first time in many days.

spring is here

The spring is here again, the city is full of flowers and green trees!I had a walk in my favourite park near the lake.. I was all alone but it didn’t matter. There was a lot of time to think.
Isn’t Hangzhou a fantastic place on Earth? I’m sighing now. Yes, it is… If only I knew how to fully appreciate and cherish those unique moments of my life!

motivation

I didn’t have too much motivation to write anything special here, even non-special! Life goes on. I traveled to Spain (Barcelona), then went to Poland to spend Easter with my family. Barcelona was so great! To see that overwhelming architecture, those breath taking paintings, those gorgeous churches… my god, it was just a dream come true. And then Poland… too chilly at that time of year! It supposed to be nice and warm, but the temperature was low. It’s always good to see the family. I spent there only a week, maybe too short…
Left Poland after a week, bought a lot of books to read in China, flew back to Shanghai… Then took a train to Hangzhou, where I felt really bad. First of all, it was too hot. Second of all, thousands of people were waiting to take a taxi, and I was one of them. Thirdly, my suitcase, which supposed to be lighter on the way back, was superheavy again! Damn. The traffic in Hangzhou was terrible. I spent more time on the taxi than on the train from Shanghai! That’s ridiculous! 

I’ve already been working for almost 2 weeks, quite busy actually! My contract needs to be resigned, my visa needs to be renewed, that’s why I needed to get a health check. It turned out that I am very healthy, I’m in my prime… hahah. No problems with health and I even managed to gain some weight!

My cat missed me a lot. When I came back home, at first he was scared, like he forgot who I was. Then he started meowing really loudly and wouldn’t stop! It sounded like a complaint: “Why did you leave me alone for such a long time!!” It was heart-breaking. I guess he has changed, he has become more loving and eager to hug. It’s a good change.

Billy is a new friend of mine. He’s a Vietnamese boy working in Hangzhou, quite lonely. It’s nice to talk to him. Jack,. another friend, is a waiter in my favourite Japanese restaurant. Whenever I go there, he sits and talk to me, although his English is really just so-so. I don’t care, I can feel he is a nice boy and it’s great to see his friendly face.

Jill is still sweet. I guess she will always be like that. We meet regularly for dinners, and this week we went to the cinema. Yes, have I mentioned that I like watching movies? Not DVDs, not on the computer, but at the cinema… We saw “Titanic” in 3-D version… Was it good? Well, to tell you the truth, I forgot that it was a 3-D version. Haha, maybe because it’s an old movie? Well, who would think that we will describe “Titanic” as an old movie.

Jason Mraz has released his new album, “Love Is a Four Letter Word”. How exciting!

Kent are releasing their new album next week! Even more exciting!

Madonna, Sigur Rós… what a beautiful spring, many of my favourite artists are sharing their new ideas. Wonderful time. So.. why am I still sad? I wish I knew how to be happier.

the freedom song

Hitlist #581
April 23rd, 2012

1. 2 (6) JASON MRAZ, The Freedom Song
2. 1 (4) KENT, 999
3. 3 (9) X-5, Dangerous
4. 8 (5) ARCTIC MONKEYS, R U Mine?
5. 4 (5) THE RASMUS, I’m A Mess
6. 5 (6) MADONNA, Girl Gone Wild
7. 7 (5) AIR, Parade
8. 14 (2) 林俊杰 (JJ LIN), We Together
9. 10 (6) KEANE, Silenced By The Night
10. 6 (12) 周杰伦 (JAY CHOU), 迷魂曲 (Mihun Qu)
11. 18 (2) ROXETTE, It’s Possible
12. – (1) SCISSOR SISTERS, Only The Horses
13. 9 (4) MAROON 5 FEAT. ROZZI CRANE, Come Away To The Water
14. 15 (3) GARBAGE, Blood For Poppies
15. 13 (16) JASON MRAZ, I Won’t Give Up
16. 11 (10) MOBY, After
17. – (1) CHARLIE WINSTON, Where Can I Buy Happiness?
18. 12 (7) FUN. FEAT. JANELLE MONAE, We Are Young
19. – (1) KEANE, Disconnected
20. 16 (2) ED SHEERAN, Drunk

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