I can tell I’m weaker than before. Something has been wrong with me since I came back to Hangzhou last week. I’m getting tired very fast, I have no appetite (what is bad – how thin can I be!! ), I’m getting angry, so many things annoy me these days. Are they just changes I experienced during my travels? If so, then how long can it last to adjust?
My mood has been also unstable: sometimes I’m melancholic, sad, want to cry, ad it takes just few moments to be extremely happy. I guess it’s not normal. Emotional swing, sleepless.
Yeah, I need to take a long rest. When? Maybe in next life…
I bought tickets to fly back to China. I’m going to Poland in the end of June (the ticket was purchased last year) and going to be back in mid-July. It’s a roundtrip… so yes, I know when I’m going back to Poland again. And it won’t be until March 2009… That scares me a little because it means I won’t be back home for Christmas. It’s going to be the first time I won’t spend Christmas with my family. I decided not to come back at that time because my sister-in-law has been pregnant, hopefully is giving birth in winter – I’d like to see the baby. Perhaps it won’t be born until Christmas and I want to be sure to meet a happy, enlarged family. It’s too expensive and too time-consuming to fly to Europe twice within few months.
Now I think it’s a good idea. Who knows how I’m going to feel in December.
Looking for a better world; where can I find it…?