mezmerize/hypnotize
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the greatest
29 Dec 2005 Leave a comment
in Music
1. Daniel Powter – Bad Day
[… cause you need the blue sky, holiday…]
2. James Blunt – You’re Beautiful
[… my life is brilliant, my love is pure…]
3. Negative – The Moment Of Our Love
[… love is right now so don’t close your heart…]
4. Coldplay – Speed Of Sound
[… birds go flying at the speed of sound to show you how it all began…]
5. Gorillaz – Feel Good Inc
[… love forever, love is free, let’s turn forever you and me…]
6. Green Day – Boulevard Of Broken Dreams
[… my shadow’s the only one that walks beside me…]
7. Robbie Williams – Tripping
[… why do you think we should suffer in silence? When a heart is broken there’s nothing to break…]
8. Good Charlotte – I Just Wanna Live
[…don’t really care about the things that they say…]
9. Athlete – Wires
[…
I see it in your eyes, you’ll be alright…]
10. Apocalyptica feat. Ville Valo & Lauri Ylönen – Bittersweet
[… break this bittersweet spell on me…]
11. The Killers – Somebody Told Me
[… you had a boyfriend who looked like a girlfriend…]
12. Moby – Lift Me Up
[… lift me up higher now up now…]
13. Within Temptation – Memories
[… all of my memories keep you near, your silent whispers, silent tears…]
14. Stereophonics – Dakota
[… you made me feel like the one…]
15. 2Pac feat. Elton John – Ghetto Gospel
[… those who wish to follow me I welcome with my hands…]
16. Kelly Clarkson – Since U Been Gone
[…
I can breath for the first time, I’m so movin’ on…]
17. Gorillaz – Dare
[… never did no harm, it’s DARE…]
18. Madonna – Hung Up
[… time goes by so slowly…]
19. The Chemical Brothers – Galvanize
[…
my finger is on the button… push the button…]
20. U2 – City Of Blinding Lights
[… the more you see the less you know, the less you find out as you go…]
thinking kills
28 Dec 2005 1 Comment
feel low. Well, I could say that it’s usual for me in the end of the
year but every year I hope it will be different. In the end of each
year I am in bad mood. I have my reasons… although I am sure at the
other time of year I wouldn’t pay so much attention to those reasons.
The turn of the years makes me feel something is passing by, and I
don’t really know which way to turn. Yes, I have to resign from my flat
in Toruń and I ‘m coming back home …
I think I’m too old to come back home to my parents. I just don’t want
to come back but as long as I don’t have a job, I can’t live on my own.
That makes me feel so mad!
No, I don’t have a job. I am losing hope and even my big plans for
going abroad seem to be so distant and unreal. Yes, I’m taking part in
the course which will help me in getting job abroad, yes, I’m passing
particular parts… but what to do when I don’t have enough power? When
it is turning out that I’m good in this, I’m glad only for a short
while. And then low mood appears again. Fuck. Let this year finally end.
This time there’s New Year’s Eve party at my place. Still in Toruń…
it will be my last party there. I have invited some of my friends from
the studies but again that doesn’t cheer me up. Yeah, there will be a
big party – and so what? I will have to get up next day… and get out
from the crossroads I am now. How will the next year be?
It seems to me that I’m thinking too much. I should tattoo the new motto "thinking kills" – instead of "feeling good". Who will say to take it easy?
let there be love
26 Dec 2005 Leave a comment
in Music
- 1 (3) Röyksopp – What Else Is There?
- 2 (4) Coldplay – Talk
- 3 (3) Oasis – Let There Be Love
- 9 (5) James Blunt – High
- 4 (8) Madonna – Hung Up
- 6 (5) Gorillaz – Dirty Harry
- 7 (5) Anastacia – Pieces Of A Dream
- 11 (2) Depeche Mode – A Pain That I’m Used To
- 5 (7) Shakira – Don’t Bother
- 15 (4) Daniel Powter – Free Loop
- 13 (5) Alanis Morissette – Crazy
- 14 (4) Sugababes – Ugly
- 10 (9) The Black Eyed Peas – My Humps
- – (1) Korn – Twisted Transistor
- 8 (10) Sugababes – Push The Button
- 17 (2) Mattafix – Big City Life
- 18 (5) Green Day – Jesus Of Suburbia
- 12 (13) Robbie Williams – Tripping
- – (1) System Of A Down – Hypnotize
- 19 (6) Melanie C – First Day Of My Life
one, two, three, four
24 Dec 2005 Leave a comment
didn’t have much willingness and time to write here.. Although it has
been the first week since I don’t go to work. But despite my laziness
some things are worth mentioning.
The first: I already had an interview in order to get a new job. This
would be the position of manager’s assistant in clothing-sales company.
The interview was held by the manager himself; partly in Polish and
partly in English. He asked me what are my dreams… and of course I
told him almost everything about China .
I liked this interview, I was so chilled out and suprisingly talkative.
The manager also liked it ’cause I received an email from him where
he’s written that among 100 candidates (I don’t believe him!) he’s
chosen only 3 persons. I am among the best! He asked us to do some very
strange task. It was difficult; I’ve done it but I don’t think I’ve
done it right. But I don’t really know if I want to work there… the
salary he proposed is very low and… I will look for something else.
If not here (for sure not here!) then…. you all know what I mean!
The second: I’ve finally finnished the driving course. I’ve already set
up the date of exam; I’m having it on 3rd of January so please keep
your fingers crossed! I am full of hope and positive feelings. Let the
power be with me!
The third: I decided (well, Calvin convinced me )
to gain a special certificate for teaching English abroad. It’s
necessary to get a job in China.. as a teacher. Who would have thought
that I could be a teacher? Yeah, I used to be a private teacher for my
friends who needed it but I’ve never thought I could teach somebody
seriously! Life is full of surprises and we still learn something
new… also about ourselves. And transferring the knowledge to someone else seems to be the greatest gift human can give.
The fourth: Christmas! I received very nice card from my friend-family
from Finland. They also sent me some photos I haven’t seen before. I am
a bit ashamed that I haven’t sent them anything… but this website is
also the good place to post wishes.
Dear Helena and Esa, dear Taija and Teppo, dear Annukka and Aki!
Wish you happiness and only good feelings. Let your dreams come true –
don’t be afraid of having dreams. Just look, life is wonderful when you
allow it!
[Sometimes I seem to be too idealistic in thinking, don’t I?]
what else is there?
18 Dec 2005 Leave a comment
in Music
- 5 (2) Röyksopp – What Else Is There?
- 2 (3) Coldplay – Talk
- 13 (2) Oasis – Let There Be Love
- 1 (7) Madonna – Hung Up
- 7 (6) Shakira – Don’t Bother
- 4 (4) Gorillaz – Dirty Harry
- 8 (4) Anastacia – Pieces Of A Dream
- 6 (9) Sugababes – Push The Button
- 16 (4) James Blunt – High
- 12 (8) The Black Eyed Peas – My Humps
- – (1) Depeche Mode – A Pain That I’m Used To
- 3 (12) Robbie Williams – Tripping
- 9 (4) Alanis Morissette – Crazy
- 19 (3) Sugababes – Ugly
- 20 (3) Daniel Powter – Free Loop
- 11 (11) Room 5 – Make Luv
- – (1) Mattafix – Big City Life
- 10 (4) Green Day – Jesus Of Suburbia
- 17 (5) Melanie C – First Day Of My Life
- 14 (8) Pharrell feat. Gwen Stefani – Can I Have It Like That
the last day
16 Dec 2005 2 Comments
getting mad
14 Dec 2005 Leave a comment
silent and calm
12 Dec 2005 Leave a comment
talk
11 Dec 2005 Leave a comment
in Music
- 1 (6) Madonna – Hung Up
- 8 (2) Coldplay – Talk
- 3 (11) Robbie Williams – Tripping
- 14 (3) Gorillaz – Dirty Harry
- – (1) Röyksopp – What Else Is There?
- 2 (8) Sugababes – Push The Button
- 9 (5) Shakira – Don’t Bother
- 5 (3) Anastacia – Pieces Of A Dream
- 13 (3) Alanis Morissette – Crazy
- 10 (3) Green Day – Jesus Of Suburbia
- 4 (10) Room 5 – Make Luv
- 11 (7) The Black Eyed Peas – My Humps
- – (1) Oasis – Let There Be Love
- 7 (7) Pharrell feat. Gwen Stefani – Can I Have It Like That
- 6 (8) Franz Ferdinand – Do You Want To
- 16 (3) James Blunt – High
- 19 (4) Melanie C – First Day Of My Life
- 15 (19) James Blunt – You’re Beautiful
- 18 (2) Sugababes – Ugly
- 20 (2) Daniel Powter – Free Loop